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Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Fall Directions

I get MaeMae and Elias up and ready for school each day. It is a good routine that I am happy to part of. Then, I drive to work, which has been busy lately. For leisure, I watch TV and a weekly football game.

For a short while, I was reading a book about Christian perspectives of Buddhism and Buddhist perceptions of Christianity, although it seems a bit academic for my taste.

I can almost see the day in which Philip will be off to college. Then, we'll have just Elias and MaeMae home--a second round of parenting. Parenting will define my life.

I have been jogging, now that I can't bike to work anymore. For awhile I was more disciplined, but now I'm only jogging (slowly) twice a week.

For some reason my life seems out of rhythm. I can't really describe it. I seem content to be introspective, lost in the technical details of my work. I wonder if this is who I am and I should accept these tendencies or, if I should force myself more into a people oriented role.

I seem to have lost some of the passion for social justice, which seemed, a few years ago, so important to me. While I still hold these values, I seem less incline to be an "activist".


Sunday, September 19, 2010

Back to School


I sit in Caleb's apartment now, as he starts his second year at UC San Diego. A year ago, he started his college career, excited, not knowing what lay ahead. I, too, as a parent knew nothing of letting go. Today, as he reunited with his friends, it was a sense of the familiar--in a good way. It become apparently clear to me that San Diego (just as much as Davis) is his home and he is happy.

The school year has began and our lives are like a whirlpool. Pearl is working full time with Maelin at her school. Elias has preschool and extended care at Applegate. Philip starts his senior year. I am consumed in my work as our office adopts new OOP practices. While the days fly by, I sometime wonder the meaning of this busyness.

This week we had Philip's back to school night and a picnic at North Davis. Next, I flew with Caleb to San Diego to help him unpack and stock up his kitchen--somewhat feeling out of place among college students.

Fall is here.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Posts from Yesteryear -- Taiwan (2005)

Feb 19, 05: Our first day in Taiwan and my fears of being lost in a foreign city are subsiding. We landed and managed to take the bus into Taipei, find our hotel, and learn the fundamentals of the subway metro. We saw a temple, a memorial, a night market and more, but what I'll remember most about Taipei is the full senses that it demands. Neon lights, unceasing audible warnings, and strange, but strong odors fill the city. I think of Mu-Shien.... I am exhausted.

Feb 20, 05: It has been days, but finally I slept well and feel refreshed this morning. Taipei is so busy. What started as a quiet Saturday morning at 7:00, we we first arrived grew into a vibrant hustling city by evening -- people everywhere. The night markets were exotic, unlike anything in the west. Filled with food galore prepared in strange ways. The smell that penetrated the air, as if to surround us, was like fish and curry. First it was unique, but over time, became mildly sickening and overwhelming. The temple was beautiful--the music, the candles, the lanterns, the prayers, the people gathering together--there voices (language) I could not understand. It would have been perfect had it not been for the incense, which smoke and smell at times I found overwhelming. The Buddhist temple, nonetheless, was beautiful.

Today it's Sunday -- a quieter day in Taipei. We went to the National Palace Museum and saw numerous scrolls, wood carvings, jade, and sculptures. Next, was shopping -- never ending stores --high rise buildings. Lunch was unique at a teahouse -- waffles and tea. After an afternoon nap we headed to Taipei City Hall to see the hundreds of lanterns in celebration of the Lantern Festival 15 days into the new Lunar year -- the Roster.

Feb 21, 05: The waterfront in Dansui was dissappointing. Rainy and cold -- the port was empty with few attractions. We caught the MRT then found Bus 26 which took us to the desserted waterfront. I was fearful that we wouldn't be able to get back, but luckily the route is frequently travelled. Next, we went to Bentou which was a great experience int he hot springs. Soaking in hot mineral water in the cold rain was fun.

Last night we lost our room at Hotel Royal Inn and moved to the Rosemary Inn - which was run down. It was dated, dirty, and cold. The mattress was like a box spring and hard to sleep on. It reminded me of days sleeping on the floor because it was so hard.

Feb 22, 05: We started a 5 day/4 night tour of the island. Today, most of the day was at Sun Moon Lake and the aboriginal culture. Now we are at Taiching. I am still preoccupied with MuShien. I can't wait to meet her. I am saddened that my father never had a chance to meet her. I also thinkg of him and how hard it must be on my mom to suddenly be without him after so long.

Another interesting fact about Taiwan is the bettlenut or bitternut. Young women often scantly dressed sell these snacks which are extremely bitter but provide a warmth in the body. It is a stimulant that many people use particularly in the rural and central part of Taiwan. The stands are everywhere! The tree looks like a palm tree but much smaller. It is a strange industry.

7-11 shacks for dinner. Again, I fall asleep so fast and anxiously await tomorrow. The weather is warmer and there is less rain. This city is older, but more neon lights surround the streets and create a deco atmosphere.

Feb 23, 05: We saw several sites enroute to Kaoshing, the 2nd largest city in Taiwan. Kaoshing is the main seaport and lacks the infrastructure (MRT) of Taipei--although one is being built now. We saw the peota in Ching Ching lake and the zig zag bridge. Prior to Kaoshing we stopped in Lakung -- a small town to see a duddhist temple with many interesting small markets with exotic foods.

At night, near our hotel we wondered to the lantern festival. There were tens of thousands of people swarming the river bed. Fireworks and shops and crowds were everywhere. The show was lasers, water fountains, and projected colors followed by music and fireworks.

Feb 24, 05: Today we went to Kenting National park. It took about 2 hours to get there. Climbing the huge volcanic rocks, seeing the ocean, and the lush vegetation was fascinating. We saw a water buffalo and a family of monkeys. The lighthouse was also interesting. South, the weather was much warmer and humid. At night we walked about 5 blocks to the open markets. We ate at a hot pot -- simple Japanese style meal. Again, the late night with so many people, and exotic foods, under neon lights -- strange smells.

Feb 28, 05: I couldn't stop thinking about tomorrow. I fell asleep watching movies--my family all of us together. Now, I am awake feeling there is too much to do. Tomorrow, we meet her for the first time.


Saturday, August 21, 2010

Alaskan Cruise


"A liking for the sea and it's lore..."

While its been nearly 20 years since I sailed the seas, the cruise rekindle my affections for the ocean. I appreciated the time being with family. Unplugged from the world, on the ocean, shipboard time operates at its own pace.

The cruise was a celebration of Mom and Dad's 50th Anniversary. It was fun to be with extended family. Fine dining, an evening show, a walk around port, jogging the treadmill, seeing the majestic glaciers--all characterized the cruise, but mostly it was just about being together as a family.

The global economics were also evident. Almost 1900 passengers being served by a crew of 900, mostly from developing nations. Crew members earned as little as $30 per day, while working 12 hour days. My only comfort in experiencing this overt economic disparity firsthand was the fact that most crew members worked on cruise lines for decades indicating that these jobs, although menial from a 1st world perspective, might provided upward mobility in developing nations.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Change of Command

Today, I attended a change of command ceremony in Oakland. It was good to see several classmates again, many of whom I haven't seen in 10 or 20 years. Caleb and Philip came and they had a glimpse of part of my life that they had never seen.

In these reflective moments, one always ponders--what if...what if I stayed in the Coast Guard? Life was not meant to live in the hypothetical.

I had a good time. I'm glad I was able to share this moment with Caleb and Philip.


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Spring Break

A visit to the snow, a trip to San Diego, spring is here.

We enjoyed a few side trips and one long one to San Diego. Eli and MaeMae enjoyed the beach and Legoland. It was good to see Caleb, and for Philip to spend a day in the dorms.

The battle of the bands at picnic day is becoming one of my favorite traditions. MaeMae loved the music and couldn't stop dancing. Eli couldn't stop laughing at the Stanford band and all their crazy costumes. Music is something special that touches the soul.

I have been watching these you tube videos on Stephen Hawking's lectures on the origins of the universe--thoughtful and provocative. There is so much available on the internet these days.


Saturday, January 2, 2010

Christmas 2009


It was good to have Caleb hope for an extended period. The 2009 Christmas season could best be described as visiting family and watching movies. Nothing exciting, but nonetheless time together. Soon, Philip will be in college and our household will change even more. The holidays become a blur: watching Avatar; Philip's wrestling meet; a family Christmas eve; Christmas morning with Pearl's family; visiting my extended family in Lodi on Christmas night; my extended family celebration at our house; yard work at my mom's house; a family trip to Lawrence Hall of Science at UC Berkeley; New Years Eve with JoAnn's Family.

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